After the effects of his mother

There is a lot of talking about searching for mothers, but what happens when girls who expect to find their mothers? Alicia, Dana and Vania, three of them. Your stories are included in the book Ants between the giants. Childhood and their experiences before disappearance and killing outside the judiciary of their mothers and fathersPublished by Heinrich Böll Foundation, Article 19 Office of Mexico and Central America. In an interview with Excelsior, they separate how their lives were without their mothers, who hope to find it every day.

Death trips, the last track

Alicia disappeared on January 5, 1978. His return was always the eternal gift that asked her daughter, Alicia, Magi.

We always left the thread in the grandfather’s house and Cartita was every year … I asked for the wrist that I wanted, or what I wanted, and told them: “Bring me to my mother.” “It never arrived, but I never stopped asking for it,” he says.

As a student in e -engineering, Alicia De Los Ríos Merino, originally from Bachíniva, Chihuahua, has become a militant in the Communist League on September 23 (LC23s), a guerrilla organization that requested an armed revolution in Mexico.

My mother, since then, enters almost equal paralysis; Alicia, who grew up with her ancestors, was returning forever, no longer returned to Chihuwa, in 1974, he left the city forever, forever, no longer returned to Chihuahua.

Alicia Madhri, her daughter’s father, Enrique Perez Mora, the leader of LC23s in Gallisco, when he helped him escape from the sincere prison, in that state, in January 1976. It was a quick -end story; She was pregnant and died in a fighting in Kolakan, and they will receive, in June of the same year.

Alicia tells the daughter of how she runs one of her first memories with all her aunts and children, to ask her ancestors about what they told about her mother, “but he did not understand anything.”

They told me that my mother studied in Mexico. After that, his cousin was angry, playing, because I hit him very strong and shouted: “For this reason your mother is in prison.” I imagined her in an ordinary prison, but then, the cousin who grew up with him, and I see that every time I suffered in order to understand her … My grandparents and her mother shouted: “Why don’t you tell her?

Throughout his life, Alicia searched for other Alicia. A daughter and a lawyer and then, as a historian. He now knows that after his arrest, his mother was transferred to the No. 1 Military Field, in the city of Mexico; Then, to a military air base standing Kesta, Guerrero.

“We believe that she is one of the death trips, which just resumes on June 8, 1978. Her transportation coincides with her stay at the air base,” says her daughter. Death trips were part of the dirty war that was armed at sea.

Now, Alicia’s daughter is celebrating on May 10 through the march of missing mothers and children; After 47 of his mother’s absence, he is still looking for her, until he finds her, in any situation.

I would like to tell her that nothing owes me, and I thank her deeply, the truth, that she dared, first, pregnancy; Then to give birth, and finally, I give myself a family where I knew that nothing will happen to me … We will find it and we will demand it as a revolutionary in his time … so I learned to love, then I will find you. “

“Your place will always be there.”

Pamela is still stored. Vania is already Dana, her daughters, to put her. They are of the same size as their mother, but they do not occupy her because they do not want to wear it, even when they return, I can use it again.

Pamela disappeared on July 25, 2010; Fifteen years later, her daughters – who are now almost the same age as she disappeared – is looking for her.

That night I would have gone to a party with his friends … We slept and from there we did not know anything; “We woke up and no longer,” he said. joinery Vania, who was six years old at the time.

Pamela Portilo, 23, was a victim of the disappearance of Chihuwa. The last thing that was known to have had a military checkpoint. Then, the story is empty. Dana and Vania, in an attempt to protect them from reality, hidden her family, for a period of three years, and the real reason for her mother’s absence.

We were very young to understand and know. “We are living in believing that he went to Sonora to work,” says Vania.

It was very difficult, because in Christmas gifts, or on our birthdays, but nothing more than observation, my mother did not arrive with her … The nights of crying were very much, because we missed her. “

It was at the primary school when Vania and Dana explained, and her grandmother and Jeddah found her aunt, Lucy, reality, with the support of the Women’s Human Rights Center.

(Tell us): Dana says: “Tell us): You do not know to my grandmother, how to tell her, but her mother does not work, and her mother is a victim of enforced disappearance.”

I had already heard, years ago, my grandmother. He approached and asked if the mother of the missing girl was. Also, the curiosity gained me, then, among my mother’s adopting staff, some newspapers where my mother came out … I never told Dana, because she was smaller, she did not want to intimidate her.

Lucy, her aunt’s grandmother, adopted them like her daughters. He spent his latest names, Moreno Portilo, to Hernandez Alarun. In school, from day to day, the deal has also changed.

“I started stopping the presence of friends, and I couldn’t be your friend because something happens to me and things like that,” she says.

For me, on several occasions, tell me an orphan. He never said that my mother had died, but they already took her as it was not, and then, we received harassment, “” Vania was affected.

Fifteen years have passed. They are now university students participating in marches, but this does not stop thinking about that mother who has prepared every French bread every day.

Now we are at the university, we are looking for our dreams, and perhaps they were dreams she wanted or she wanted to get them. “Well, we are always looking for her, we are always waiting for her,” says Dana.

If he returns, and perhaps he will not find girls who stay, but I think he will find two adult women who will give him something that he is proud of … We will always wait … The house is still empty, and its place will always be there. “

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